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Sharon Crouch’s Story

July 31st, 2011 by | Tags: | Comments Off

Sharon Crouch is a late-deafened who has bilateral cochlear implants. She shares a piece of her story on how cochlear implants have changed her life. Her blog can be found by clicking here.

Oh no I can’t be! I have to take care of Mom and Ben. I could feel myself slowly slipping to the other side. Things were becoming silent.  The beautful church music was fading into silence.  I looked up to see my two sons sitting on a beautiful bench with a space between them on a beautiful green grassy hill.  It was such a peaceful beautiful place, where both had their arms stretched over back of the bench where space was between them their arms resting.

That spaced was for me.  I had to grab them.  I had to reach them and couldn’t die. Trapped in my head but couldn’t let go. Oh God no! no! Mom and Ben needed me to take care of them.  I was thinking as I was slipping further and further to the other side. The beautiful christian music fading further and further away. Oh I’m gone.

Oh I can hear it, I hear it the music is coming back. Oh thank you Lord I’m not going to die. Back into oblivion, I slipped for several days in coma.

This was the beginning of my world of silence

I am celebrating this month my 1st anniversary of my first Cochlear Implant. So blessed to be alive and hearing. As the doctors pretty much told my son to make my funeral arrangements. As there was no more they could do for me.

I am just thrilled to be here and hearing. When I came out of the coma, I thought there were just too many machines in the room making noises, and that’s why I couldn’t hear. They took me by stretcher to a hearing clinic where they informed me that I would never hear again, and there was nothing that would help me. There was a device but they said it wouldn’t help me. I cried and cried until there were no more tears left. I would never hear my children, grandchildren, or new baby twin grandchildren again. I just couldn’t bear this.

That afternoon, my son came into my room and brought the grandchildren. The tears just started rolling again I couldn’t stop them. I felt so horrible to be falling apart in front of them but there was nothing I could do. It was my little granddaughter that brought me out of the tears. But that’s a story for another time

Now is the time.  With the tears rolling, my granddaughter had the little chalk board writing phrases like “Be Strong” and she would hold it up like Vanna White just like a model with a huge smile.  She also wrote “Be Brave.”  It would have dried up the tears of any eyes.

It was three months later when I thought I could hear again when I went for help and a beautiful woman named KAREN MOULDER came inro my life and presented a glare of hope for me. She taught me about Cochlear Implants and that she BELIEVED they would work for me.

We went the hearing aid route for a few months but it wasn’t working for me. So off for CI’s and CI testing. I failed all parts of the test, but in that little booth, I had word comprehension. So they said, “Sorry no CI’s and come back in a year and if it was worse, they would reconsider me for implants.” I know you can imagine my disappointment. But this is where I see God really stepping in.

In the meantime, an opportunity presented itself as I was having severe ear infections.  I was directed to a Dr. Ricardo Cristabol, an ENT, who had just came on the scene in Ft. Worth and just happened to be one of the best CI surgeons in the country.  He cleared up my infections and was ready to move forward with CI’s. First we had to do a major eardrum surgery.  By the time we did the surgery, 90% of the eardrum was gone. He used a heart donors tissue to replace eardrum. Now I am really seeing God’s hand in all this.

Surgeries were done and back to testing for CI, which we were sure I wouldn’t pass. But I passed the word comprehension again. So no implant for me.  I was in shock. I now was beginning to believe that CI’s were not in the near future for me. But God had a different plan.

By this time, I began to do volunteer work for the Goodrich Center For the Deaf in Ft. Worth. Karen had me hooked up with the Cochlear Community. Well as fate would have it as a Cochlear event was being planned and presented by PAULA MOORE and the speaker was to be none other than the great Dr. Cristobal.

So off I went to the event. When Dr. Cristobal spoke, he mentioned that there were occasions where he would have a patient that he considered a special circumstance and though they didn’t qualify, he felt like they would benefit from the implant. Well I was one of those special circumstances.

Isn’t God good that he put me in the hands I was suppose to be in. So happy 1st anniversary to me. The great news is that not only do I have one implant but also two as you can read about them in my other blogs.

The one thing I hope is that this will give some hope in your life and not to give up on your hearing dream or hearing journey whichever you are on. I literally had one foot on the upper side of heaven. God has restored my health and blessed me with the opportunity to continue taking care of my mom, and Ben. Then on top of all that, CIs reunited me back into the hearing world again. I am here with “Double Joy” as Margo would put it. So this is a wonderful 1st anniversary can you just imagine what the others will be like??  The story is a little long but thank you for encouraging me to share it. If it makes a difference in one’s life, it will be worth it to all. May God’s blessings be with all my buddies.  A lot has changed since I wrote this I want to insert a couple poems that God gave me during some difficult times.  They will tell the rest of the story:

Cochlear Friends

DEAF YOU SEE

Now I am deaf as you see

So is this how the world was meant to be?

Oh I don’t think so, but we will see

As it seems now all of my friends have forgotten me

Well not all my friends as I really can see

There are still the ones that really cared for me

Does anyoe know how this hurts for me?

For me, that I cannot yet clearly see

But I know God said with me he always would be

So in Gods perfect plan I will be

And that’s why God has sent me the Cochlear Community

 

MAMA PRAYED FOR ME

IT WAS THE LAST WEDNESDAY I WOULD TUCK MOM IN BED

AND THIS LAST NIGHT SO MUCH WAS SAID

YOU SEE MOM GRABBED MY ARM AND BEGAN PRAYING FOR ME

THEN I WONDERED HOW COULD THIS BE

SHE WAS IN THE LATE STAGES OF ALHZIEMERS YOU SEE

AS SHE CRIED OUT TO THE LORD F0R HELP FOR ME

SHE SAID LORD GIVE HER STRENGTH

FOR ALL THAT WAS TO BE

SHE SAID Y0U KN0W LORD WHAT NEEDS T0 BE

IT WAS LIKE SHE COULD SEE MY SOUL AND MY NEEDS

AS SHE TOUCHED THE VERY DEPTHS WITH HER LOVE FOR ME

N0W TO MANY THIS MIGHT NOT BE A L0T YOU SEE

BUT A YEAR AGO I COULD NOT HEAR MY MOMMY

NOW HERE WE WERE MAMA GOD AND ME

I WILL NEVER FORGET

AS IT WAS MAMA’S LAST WORDS TO ME

A LOT WOULDN’T HAVE HAPPENED

EXCEPT FOR THS COCHLEAR COMMUNITY

THAT GAVE ME THE C0URAGE TO MOVE FORWARD YOU SEE

IT ALLOWED ME TO HEAR MAMA’S

WONDERFUL PRAYER JUST FOR ME

YES THERE WAS A TEAR N MY EYE AS MAMA LEFT ME

BUT GOD TAKES THE BEST

AND IT WAS MAMA’S TURN TO BE

There are not enough words to thank all of you for your uplifting prayers for me. I really could feel them as God truly carried me thru this one. My life would not be the same if it were not for all my buddies here so wanted to share this special moment as it was the last I heard her talk to anybody. I know this was God all that she prayed was buried deep in me. What an awesome G0d we serve. I will forever be thankful for the encouragement from buddies here to move forward. I would have missed this special prayer Mama had for me. May the Lord bless you and keep you all in a special way.

I now have it all bilateral, laughing and chattering of  Children.  Spending that last year hearing mom and this special  good bye prayer.   I pray it will help some to make the right decision for themselves or one of their family member.   Forever Hearing!

 

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